desire is desire
neither sun can bleach it
nor the night can put it out.

over and over
it is over
and over

i am over.

drop

to love is to suffer.
to avoid suffering one must not love.
but then one suffers from not loving.
therefore, to love is to suffer.
not to love is to suffer.
to suffer is to suffer.
to be happy is to love.
to be happy, then, is to suffer.
but suffering makes one unhappy.
therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness.
i hope you're getting this down.

woody allen

i wanna see you far away now
like a rocket’s red glow
the less sad i am,
the more i’ll be
so why don't you leave my backyard
there is so much i've heard ...

errata

yanlışlardayım.

tear bottle. cry me a river.

fire walk with me

bedensel yorgunluk yaşadığını hissetmek demek.

unfinished sympathy

şu günlerde
iyiyim
uzun zamandır olmadığım bir biçimde.

kendi kendini tamamlamanın gerekliliğini anladım
başkasıyla tamamlanmadan önce.

ama bu hiç bitmeyen kafiye nereden gelir, nereye gider, benim her kurduğum cümleyle neden şiir yazılabilir onu anlayamadım.
latent poet, thats what i am.
overliteral.

my funny valentine;
sweet, comic valentine;
you make me smile with my heart.
your looks are laughable;
unphotographable;
yet, you're my favorite work of art.
is your figure - less than greek?
is your mouth - a little weak?
when you open it to speak, are you smart?
don't change a hair for me;
not if you care for me;
stay, little valentine, stay!

each day is valentine's day.

fond
but not in love

invisible

syndrome: deficiency of emotional landscape.

bugün başıma birkaç gün içinde anlamayı umduğum bir şey geldi.


ne kadar oldu
olmayalı?
o.a.

how to fight loneliness smile all the time shine your teeth to meaningless and sharpen them with lies and whatever is going down will you follow around that’s how you fight loneliness you laugh at every joke drag your blanket blindly fill your heart with smoke and the first thing that you want will be the last thing you’ll ever need that’s how you fight it just smile all the time

ipso facto, about a boy.

come see what we all talk about, people moving to the moon, stop baby, don't go, stop here, never stop living here, till it eats the heart from your soul, keeps down the sound of your silent sigh.

There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, the other is getting it.
Oscar Wilde.

last night a dj saved my life

you know it makes no difference
whether we talk or not
but if you talk to me
i will listen to you
with my eyes
my ears
my heart

indispensable

sadece en çok istediğin şeyi tanrılaştırmak zorundasındır... jim crace - ölürken

rouge

day after day love turns gray like the skin on the dying man
and night after night we pretend it's all right
but i have grown older
and you have grown colder
and nothing is very much fun, anymore
and i can feel one of all my turns coming on
i feel cold as a razor blade
tight as a tourniquet
dry as a funeral drum

lonelily

now and then loneliness becomes tangible.
it is the air you breathe - in and out. it is the very breath which fills your lungs.
it grows into a body, it stands beside you. it follows you better than your shadow.
if you give it a chance to be a company, the luxury begins:
when loneliness is in such a pure form, it is something you cannot do without.
you wont look each other in the eye,
for you know that loneliness has no eyes.

d.

be my valentine.

story of the eye

i feel sick all day long from not being with you.

pusteblume

wanna plan a murder or start a religion

Handsome lad, dead in a car
Confusion
No connections
Come here
I love you
Peace on earth
Will you die for me?
Eat me
This way
The end

[I'll always be true
Never go out, sneaking out on you, babe
If you'll only show me Far Arden again.]

bir ara'dayız
bir aradayız.

Chas: Can we read it?
Richie: No.
Chas: Can you paraphrase it for us?
Richie: I don't think so.
Chas: Is it dark?
Richie: Of course it is dark. it is a suicide note.

Royal Tenenbaums.

Nobody will ever really know anybody,
you'll never really know me. - rules of attraction.

a cynic is a man who knows the price of everything, and the value of nothing.
oscar wilde.

whoever thinks of going to bed before twelve o clock is a scoundrel.

eşya ve tabiatı - aganist the grain

düşündükçe
camdan bir eşyaya dönüşüyorsun
saydam, içi boş
düşündükçe kırılan
beynimde işlevsiz bir nesne
yanına yaklaştıkça uzağıma düşen
soyut bir nokta

başka bir dil öğrenmenin zor olan tarafı
o dili hissedememek

hissedilmez oldun
artık aynı dili hiç konuşmuyoruz.

eğer tanrıyı güldürmek istiyorsan
ona planlarından bahset.

to the one who has brilliance

I am only attracted to subjects of tragic dimensions. It has to be hard to take. It has to be serious. It has to draw blood. My work is...I almost said doomed.
Maurice Sendak

buz pateni gibi bir şey ilişki.
bıçakların üzerinde yürümeyi bildiğin,
karşındakine seni düşürmeyeceğine dair güvendiğin,
kusursuz dengeyle hareket ettiğiniz bir dans.

düşmek acı ve soğuk.

i invent nothing. it is all there. - joan miro